When I was younger I could never dress up as the one thing I wanted to be. What was that? Well truth be told, I didn’t want to be a princess, a damsel in distress. I didn’t want to dress up as barbie, or anything else every little girl wanted to be. I wanted to be my own hero, someone in disguise. A Power Ranger. But my mom never wanted me to dress up as one. Why? Because I was a hyperactive girl, that shouldn’t be dressed like a “boy.” But guess what? There are girl Rangers too. The heroes don’t JUST have to be boys or even men! I was a little girl who was just wanting to write my own destiny. Be the hero everyone looked too. No, I’m not a lesbian but so what if I was! If I wanted to dress up as a Power Ranger, A POWERFUL idol for kids, then I should have been able too, no matter the case. Maybe someday I can put on that costume on for a costume party someday…


College Blues

So, I used to be the favorite student of most of my teachers growing up. But in college, they look at me like I’m the enemy. It’s like… Whoa! What did I do? But in reality I know it’s because I don’t apply myself like I did. It’s just too hard when I’m stuck studying what I hate. I should have thought harder about my major. I regret so much. But what I realize is I need to get my act together and find something else, or be an adult and stick with it. Either way, I need to make a decision and FAST.

Nowhere and Nothing

Hello world. My name, for the sake of this blog, is ZER0. Why? Because at the moment I feel as though life isn’t going as I planned it too. I’m 21 years old and I’m going to community college, most likely failing because I chose a major I just now realized I don’t resonate with. I feel like a failure, compared to my twin sister who already graduated and is now working full time at her dream job and is loving it. At 21! I don’t know why I can’t find something I like and stick with it. Maybe it’s commitment issues. But whatever the reason, it doesn’t stop me from thinking sometimes that life isn’t worth living. I know, I know I sound like a whine bag. But you know what? I’m going NOWHERE, and doing NOTHING. I’m wasting away. So in my hour of need in the wee hours on a Sunday morning, I thought of creating a blog. I always write to escape reality. I think making a blog will help me in many ways. I will be writing of my feelings on my everyday life, or just anything and everything in between.

So here goes right? …